The Push

Last June was my son’s 1st birthday, and we decided to celebrate with my in-laws in Florida. We also decided that, for the one birthday he is guaranteed not to remember, we should take him to Disney World. We bought the photo package as proof to him one day that we are awesome parents because like I already mentioned, at one year, his memory is not at its peak! Now I know I am over weight, and I know that over the past couple years another 25 pounds creeped* onto my already heavy frame. Knowing this and seeing this are two very different things.  I had a grand plan to blow these pictures up, put them on canvas, and display them all over the house. When I saw the pictures I realized this was not the body I wanted to blow up, put on canvas and display anywhere!

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Distraught, I went to my husband and suggested  strongly suggested demanded weight loss surgery. He is very pro surgery, but only when it is medically necessary and there is no other alternative. I pointed out that I was going to die without weight loss surgery (hence medically necessary). We proceeded to have a pretty big fight over this; not our biggest, but top 10. Once I calmed down (and realized I wasn’t as terminal as the diva side of me claimed to be), I negotiated with my very logical husband. If I lost at  50 pounds it would put my BMI under 40, and weight loss surgery would no longer be covered by my insurance (since I am surprising healthy aside from the weight). The deal was that if I could not lose 50 pounds naturally (and really try) before we could save the money needed for the copay, I would get the surgery. I have PCOS and a thyroid condition making weight loss a SLOW process, so I honestly thought I had this in the bag. That was five months ago in August, 8/19 to be exact. As of today I have lost 35 pounds, and I am so glad my husband had faith in me to start! I have decided that even though I am not at the 50 pound mark, I am not going to pursue surgery. I still have a LONG way to go (about 100 pounds), but I have confidence in myself that I can do this!

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*Spellcheck says this isn’t a word, but this is my blog and I say it is a word. My blog, my rules spellcheck!

**No, my Christmas tree is not still almost half way through January, the current picture was actually taken on New Year’s Day.

4 thoughts on “The Push

  1. This is awesome. Such amazing progress. You are definitely inspiring me!! I too have been debating the surgery and I think I will give it one more try. I started weight watchers 4/22/16 and lost 37lbs by 9/2016. Since then I have gained every lb back. So disappointed in myself. But after reading this I am going to quit feeling angry and guilty about it and start again. Even if it’s been a million times. THIS TIME I WILL DO IT. You look amazing!!!

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  2. Awesome job Lorraine!!! I had the same struggle back when I was a teenager after completely changing my lifestyle and losing 75lbs I became the person I wanted to be and have maintained that for 22yrs now. I’m so happy now even though it is a daily struggle it is so worth it!!! We know you can do this and we are all so proud of what you have achieved already!!! You go super Mama!!!

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